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Jun 272006

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Jun 272006

A girl who I had a crush on in my freshman year of High School was mentioned recently in a reply to a comment I made to good_eeevening. Out of curiosity I did a search for her name, not really expecting to find her.

I did.

She even has an IMDB entry.


This is the girl who, after getting my “will you go out with me” note, shared it with everyone at her lunch table and had a good laugh at my expense.

This is the girl who I had to stop [name removed to prevent him from popping up again in my life like Hastur the Unspeakable] from attacking after they got into a argument in one of our class rooms and she verbally shredded him.

She seems to be doing pretty well for herself. I looked at her resume, and she worked with some decent folks over at USF.


Wonder who else I can find?

Jun 222006

Your current weight | 280.0 lbs
Weight change since your last recorded weight | +2.0 lbs
Total weight change to date | -139.2 lbs


Not the most encouraging thing after the “Obesity” diagnosis from earlier today, that’s for sure.

Thank you for all the lovely comments, though. Was a nice pick me up.

Jun 222006

So I went to the doctor today for a semi-annual checkup and to talk to him about the stomach blahs I had earlier this week. On a general note, most of what went between us was the same old, same old. Smoking is bad, Doxycycline (for my Roseacea) can make your acid reflux worse. Do you exercise? Blah, blah, blah. I have to get some blood work done and he wants to shove a tube down my throat again some time soon to see how my esophagus is doing (preventative measure to keep me from dying the way my Father did).

I get my receipt afterward, and at the very top is a list of things I am diagnosed with.

One of them is “Obesity, Unspecified.”

You know…

Battling with my weight has been a long and grueling process. I’ve had my failures and my successes, and I’m currently in the “win” column. I do my best every day to try and stay on program, to get my exercise in when I’m supposed to, all that fun stuff.

And yet, despite the fact that I’ve lost 141.2 pounds, I’m still considered “obese.”

I still have to lose nearly 100 pounds to be considered “healthy.”


It’s disheartening, really. Between that, and the times when my Roseacea acts up and I get huge white pustules on my face, I really feel disfigured sometimes. Yes, I realize I’m far from that compared to some folks, but this is my personal perception here. I see pictures of myself, or I look in the mirror, and I hate it.

Blah, blah bitchycakes.