Have you ever felt used? Like a tampon? Like someone grabs you up when they are hurting, bleeds all over you, and then when they are done they just toss you into a garbage can and forget about you?
I’m tired of being an emotional tampon. I’m tired of people using me when they are hurting and then walking away from me when they are done. It happens too often. Way too often. I’m tired of being the scab player. Second best. Back up pitcher. Whatever you want to call it.
I don’t know what’s worse – The fact that I allow myself to get into these situations, or the fact that people take advantage of them?
And how on EARTH could someone be so blind as to put you through that and not acknowledge it afterwards. HOW? How is it that they can be so needy, and so grateful for your perceptiveness of that, and then turn a blind eye to the fact that they have shit on you?
I don’t get it. I just don’t get it.